I have pondered this blog posts for several weeks in my head. There have been so many different thoughts and emotions that have gone into sharing about pregnancy, the excitement and the sadness that can come with a loss. Let me first start out by telling you…I have 4 beautiful children and have 2 babies I am anxiously waiting to meet in heaven. I don’t know if those babies are girls or boys…but it doesn’t matter…I already love them as if they lived here on earth. My babies in heaven,  I lost during my first trimester of pregnancy and both pregnancies ended with D&C surgeries, where it “felt” as though…